The Edge of Never by J.A Redmerski a.k.a i’m the odd one again

16151255TITLE: The Edge of Never (The Edge of Never #1)

AUTHOR: J.A Redmerski

PUBLICATION: Published November 15th 2012 by Createspace 

GENRE: NA > Romance

PAGES: 423pages (Kindle Edition)

SOURCE: Own (Kindle)

RATING: 2 ★★

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Twenty-year-old Camryn Bennett had always been one to think out-of-the-box, who knew she wanted something more in life than following the same repetitive patterns and growing old with the same repetitive life story. And she thought that her life was going in the right direction until everything fell apart.

Determined not to dwell on the negative and push forward, Camryn is set to move in with her best friend and plans to start a new job. But after an unexpected night at the hottest club in downtown North Carolina, she makes the ultimate decision to leave the only life she’s ever known, far behind.

With a purse, a cell phone and a small bag with a few necessities, Camryn, with absolutely no direction or purpose boards a Greyhound bus alone and sets out to find herself. What she finds is a guy named Andrew Parrish, someone not so very different from her and who harbors his own dark secrets. But Camryn swore never to let down her walls again. And she vowed never to fall in love.

But with Andrew, Camryn finds herself doing a lot of things she never thought she’d do. He shows her what it’s really like to live out-of-the-box and to give in to her deepest, darkest desires. On their sporadic road-trip he becomes the center of her exciting and daring new life, pulling love and lust and emotion out of her in ways she never imagined possible. But will Andrew’s dark secret push them inseparably together, or tear them completely apart?

REVIEW:

WHAT. IS. THIS.
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I’m the odd one again 🙁 After finishing The Edge of Never, I spent almost 2 hours trying to understand what I felt about it. My feelings was all over the place! I swooned, I laughed, I rolled my eyes (too many times I must say) and yeah at some point, I got teary eyed. But all of that  I started reading this thinking it was a book about a girl who was trying to discover herself.

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And at the first few chapters that was the vibe I was getting from the book.. Then I don’t know what happened but it completely lost the plot that I was expecting.

Let’s go through the characters first..

Everybody meet Camryn Benett. She’s 20 who acts 16, she giggles all the times, calls everybody (especially her bestfriend) a slut and ohmigosh you guys she’s very philosophical..

“I always kind of thought out-of-the-box. Instead of sitting around dreaming up new sex positions, as Natalie often does about Damon, (…..) I dream about things that really matter. (….) What the air in other countries feels like on my skin, how the ocean smells, why the sound of rain makes me gasp.”

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She is so smart I can’t handle it. Not only that, she’s a down right hypocrite..

“Why does everybody have to be with somebody? It’s a stupid delusion and a really pathetic way of thinking.”

“Natalie has always been an impatient, instant- gratification kind of girl.”

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WAIT WHAT?! Camryn was so hilarious you guys I want to stab her. She went from ‘I‘m-not-ready-for-a-relationship’ to ‘omg-I-hope-he-touch-me-everywhere’ and it annoyed me to death. She did a lot of slut shaming with every. single. chapter. But what I really hated about Camryn was that she’s trying so hard. She mentioned a lot in this book that a lot of people has called her ‘deep’. HAHAHAHAHAHA NO. You’re not deep Camryn, I wish you were though, that way no one would see you anymore because of your deepness.

Then there’s Andrew. A supposed to be 25 year old man who acts 17.

“I leap over the fence and land beside her and we take off running into the wide open; her like a graceful gazelle, me like the lion chasing after her.”

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You know, I get why some readers swoon over Andrew. He’s good looking, he has abs, he plays the guitar and he has tats. But just like Camryn, this guy, this male character, was also immature. He’s worse than Camryn. He has this thing where he beats the crap out of something or people when he’s really angry. I mean is that supposed to make him hot? I think not. This guy has some mental issues.

Now to the plot, to be honest I liked this at first. Though I hated Camryn right away, I understood her. I think everybody has thought of just running away. Going somewhere without a destination. But the Author did not executed it very well. The story started slowly to become crap when Camryn and Andrew became obsessed with each other. Camryn became more and more hypocrite and annoying to the point that I think she’s asking for a death wish.

“Oh my God, he hasn’t even touched me yet and I already feel this way? Am I dreaming?”

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“..raising my voice just a little, still too embarrassed to say that forbidden word, the one I’ve always found dirty and wrong and belonging only in a porno movie”

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Simply put, the plot started great then became terrible, horrible and then it just ended up frustrating. And that ending? It’s incredibly stupid. I cannot… UGH. It’s like the author didn’t even bother to think things through. To be honest, I just decided to finish this because someone told me that it’s going to break my heart in the end. But no. I just yawned, really. To say that I was disappointed is an understatement. To think that this is a USA Times Bestseller and all that. Oh and check this very idiotic scene between Camryn and Andrew (it’s on Andrew’s POV)

“And you loved her?” Camryn looks over at me, letting her head fall to the side. I keep looking at the stars.

“Yeah, I loved her, but it wasn’t meant to be.”

I’m wondering why she wants to know this; most girls I know snap into that jealousy-fueled mood-swing stuff that makes me want to cover my nuts when it comes to talking about exes. “Two years,” I answer. “The break-up was mutual; we started checking out other people and I guess realized we didn’t love each other as much as we thought we did.”

“Or, you just fell out of love.”

“No, we were never in love to begin with.”

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I.. I just.. my poor brain cells 🙁

[note: my original review is on my Tumblr blog and it was posted on March 18, 2014]